Risks

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I take risks that I shouldn’t and if I hurt myself, well that’s why they call it risk. I cannot however risk hurting another person, especially those I love the most on this earth.  If I do, even unintentionally, it is unbearable. Unbearable.

And if that happens I pray, like never before. For their complete healing. At this point and in this frame of mind it is the only real answer I have, other than don’t make it any worse, which I seem to do with every step, like every step is a risk. If other answers appear they will be welcome, but I’m not going to go bumbling around, breaking the precious items in the China shop.

I can never quit ‘this’ because for now it seems out of my control, but i can act properly.

No way, i’m packing things up now.

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