The Magic Bus

The trip to Lower Lake near Boscobel Wisconsin October 30, 2021 Written Nov1, 2021 There’s  a mysterious lake in western Wisconsin called Lower Lake. It is the subject of much mystery but not much folklore. Very few people on this planet have actually been to the lake because it is largely inaccessible. I say largely because it is indeed accessible but somewhat difficult especially when the marshes surrounding it are not frozen, which they are not now. There are no roads leading to it nor are there any trails to my knowledge since neither roads nor trails appear on any of the maps, satellite or otherwise.Tomorrow I am determined to reach that lake by foot and kayak and if you don’t see pictures from the lake by tomorrow that means I got lost in swamp and may not be able to get out in the forseeable future. I will bring some snacks just in case. Barring any mishaps however i hope to be back by Saturday night. It goes without saying that I will be bringing my fishing rod.  ...

the ugh, just .

I take risks that I shouldn’t and if I hurt myself, well that’s why they call it risk. I cannot however risk hurting another person, especially those I love the most on this earth.  If I do, even unintentionally, it is unbearable. Unbearable. And if that happens I pray, like never before. For their complete healing. At this point and in this frame of mind it is the only real answer I have, other than don’t make it any worse, which I seem to do with every step, like every step is a risk. If other answers appear they will be welcome, but I’m not going to go bumbling around, breaking the precious items in the China shop. I can never quit ‘this’ because for now it seems out of my control, but i can act properly. No way, i’m packing things up now.